“I want to cry and scream until my lungs hurt or I run out of tears. I want to throw things until they break or punch walls until I can no longer feel my hands. I want to kick down my door or throw myself on the floor until my body stops shaking. I have so many pent up emotions — anger, loss, sadness, betrayal. I want to hurt everything because everything is hurting me.
But all I’m going to do, is pretend everything is alright.”