“Dear future child,
If it’s 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair,
Please do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as I did.
Please climb onto my bed,
And I will hold you until the demons sleep.
If it is Thursday morning and you are too sad to move,
I won’t force you.
I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favourite TV show and I will remind you of your importance.
If you feel as if you have no purpose,
I will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, I feel too.
When you’re sure you can’t go on anymore,
I will tell you that when I was 21 I searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killers.
But that five years later,
When you were placed in my arms in the delivery room,
I realized that you were why I had been holding on.
Without realizing it, you saved me, do you know how amazing that is?
So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle, put it down, we will get in the car and I will drive until the sky turns magenta.
I will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too.
Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings,
As my mother was to mine.”

— Ellis Jayne Edwards

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